Passover
I’ve been missing my dad lately, and this
time of year always makes me miss my stepmom too. I used to love celebrating
Passover at their house.
Passover was my stepmother’s favorite holiday. She used a 1940s Haggadah that
she inherited from her grandmother. Over the years, the book acquired dog-ears,
stapled-in addendums, pencil-under-linings and stars, wine stains, and charoset
sticky spots. My stepmother kept finding quotes, poems and songs to add; she
was especially fond of putting an orange on the Seder plate in honor of women’s
rights. She’d also frequently say Goddess instead of God when she read the
prayers, which made my father roll his eyes and cringe. My dad was not a fan of
Passover, or large get-togethers in general, and always said, “Let’s get this
damn thing over with. I’m hungry!”
Over the years, my father condensed my stepmother’s beloved holiday into ‘The
Speed Seder’: he’d skip whole paragraphs on one page and give you the
Cliff-notes version of the next as he thumbed through the Haggadah like it was
a waiting room magazine. He’d reach the end of a line, and say “And we all know
what happened next. Amen!” Another page would get turned, and we’d down another
glass of wine. When it was time for guests to participate, he’d behave as if he
was teaching his high school accounting class. He’d bark a name, point a
finger and holler, “You! Page seven! Second paragraph. Go!” If you didn’t read
fast enough, he’d cut you off and assign your part to somebody else. He’d say,
“Okay, XX. That’s enough! Let’s give someone else a try,” then he’d freeze out
poor slow-talking XX for the remainder of the Seder.
We did have a few traditions: For twenty years it was my job to read The Four
Questions and make the charoset in my great-great-grandmother’s wooden bowl. My
oldest sister always got to open the door for Elijah. My sister’s Jewish
husband was the Wise Son. My Protestant husband was the son who didn’t know to
ask. My stepmom was in charge of reciting the plagues. We liked to see who
could make the best wine-drop designs on our dishes and we’d display our
handiwork across the table. My dad would scowl and say in his teacher-voice,
“Put your plates down. Moving on!”
But we did have fun, and the food was delicious, and it was familiar and
lively.
One year, my grandmother was taking farfel muffins out of the oven and touched
her ancient oven-mitt to the burner, lighting it on fire. She stood there
frozen, watching the flame, with her arm above her head like the Statue of
Liberty with her torch. My cousin yelled, “HOLY SHIT!” and shoved my
grandmother’s smoldering arm under the kitchen faucet while the rest of us
watched from the dining room. Totally deadpan and serious, my middle sister
leaned over and whispered to me, “Why on this night, but not all other nights,
does Grandma catch on fire?” We held our sides and cried from laughing.
Every year,
my stepmother would invite, as she called them, “strays”, so at the table there
was always some artist or student or ex-pat or Seder-newbie who didn’t know
what they were in for, so we all, for the most part, behaved ourselves.
My family did the Afikomen backwards, which I never knew until recently. My dad
put the matzo, wrapped in a paper napkin, behind a pillow on his chair.
Sometime during the Seder, my son would steal the Afikomen and hide it in the
house, and my dad was supposed to find it in a game of hot-and -cold. However,
at the end of the Seder my dad always refused to look for it. He’d sit at the
head of the table and bark my son’s name, “Zachary! Get over here!” My
six-year-old son would dutifully stand next to my dad’s chair and try not to
tremble in fear as my dad fished a twenty-dollar bill out of his wallet and
said, “Here’s the money. Enough fuckin’ around. Go get the mutzy.” (my dad
always called matzoh ‘mutzy’.) My son would trot away with the money,
disappointed that he didn’t get to show off the clever hiding place—which was
never clever, and usually made a hell of a mess that I would have to clean up
before my dad found all the crumbs and freaked out.
After dessert, while the rest of us scattered to help wash up or play cards, my
stepmom would clear the table and pat my dad gently on the shoulder as she went
past him on her way to the kitchen. My dad would linger at the dining table.
He liked to sit alone and survey the empty chairs and plates. He’d look
at the mantle clock and polish off the Ring-Jells when he thought no one was
looking.
This was a great post. I know nothing about Passover but will now forever associate it with your grandmother's flaming oven mitt. Your sister's comment had me LOLing. And your dad sounds like a hoot. All the little things you remember about decades of the same holiday are fascinating. It's sad to think you won't have a normal Passover this year but imagine the stories that will come out of next year's. Thanks for the chuckles.
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